I figured now would be a good time to post a blog. You know, the day of a chemo treatment, after my flippin’ facebook won’t let me post a status, and after Brian just sent me a sad cancer story about a woman who may only have months to live. AWESOME. There are some days when the reality of cancer is just harder and more infuriating and frustrating than others. This is one of those days. I have a headache, a lot going on at work, and a calendar that doesnt have an empty box in what seems like forever.
Why does God allow bad things to happen to good people?
Brian has been getting more and more involved in the student ministry at our church lately and has even gotten over a bunch of mental hurdles that have kept him from considering to apply for the part-time youth director position that is now open at our satellite location. The other day he “threw his name in the hat.” He is diving into the Bible like I’ve never seen, crafting his little “sermons” for the Wednesday night youth group that he is temporarily leading until they hire someone for the position, and has a vision for this ministry that is pretty rare for “just a volunteer.”
And he has cancer.
And he could someday be told that he has no more options for treatment.
So I ask again, Why do bad things happen to good people?
For God’s glory, I suppose. But it’s not fair. Why is it fair that a hard working, youth-ministry loving, God-serving man has to have cancer and a serial killer can run free? Cuz God loves them both equally, I guess. I don’t get that about God, but i guess it’s good that He is the way He is. Why does a kid-loving, moral-keeping, faith-living man have to be subjected to toxic chemicals that most likely keep him from having kids of his own when other people can “accidentally” get pregnant and not even want them? To teach us that the ways of God are a mystery, I suppose. That none of us have control of anything.
Why do bad things happen to good people?
I think that may be a question that everyone has at some point in their life. But right now, that’s a glaring question that I wish I could answer in my life. I don’t know how to give God the glory for this…but I will. I will be quick to give Him the credit, I know He is working on our behalf.
Some days, it’s just harder than others.