Last night I was talking to Carlos and he asked me what I’ve been dreaming of. I was confused, of course, so i asked him to explain. He said: “i always like to see how people are dreaming. When you stop dreaming, you stop living.” And so i started thinking about what my big dreams are. What ARE my dreams? Do I have any?
And that’s when I realized that im not sure I’m dreaming anymore. Do i still make a difference in people’s lives? I think so. Do i spend great amounts of time building relationships? Yes. But am i dreaming of bigger and better days ahead? No. I think i’ve given up my rights to dream. I do what needs to be done to fulfill someone else’s dream, which is fine and good and admirable, and its a great dream to be apart of. And it absolutely fulfills the mission God has called us to. Please note, there is nothing wrong with the dream. But that doesnt give me the excuse to stop dreaming for myself.
I used to dream of the day when I’d be in a ministry position, making a difference in students’ lives and spending my time helping them grow deeper in their faith. I always thought I knew what things would look like when that happened. Now that i’m here, and things aren’t as I expected, I’ve stopped dreaming. But i’ve got years of life ahead of me. Where do I want to be in five years? In 10 years? In 40 years? It’s time that I start dreaming again.
What are YOU dreaming of?