Tonight I remembered watching this video a few months ago, so i searched for it on YouTube and watched it again. It sparked so many emotions within me. The facts that they claim at the beginning are so true. What makes me so mad about this video is that this isnt what it looked like. The landscape was not perfect where these kids lived….it was TRASHED. There was glass and trash EVERYWHERE. Rusty swing sets, if they were even lucky enough to have that. They didnt have a nice, big orphanage…they had a small, rundown, cluttered house crammed full of kids…they had shacks barely standing up. I hate that the kids in this video all had blonde haired dolls. The last thing they need to idolize is a rich American. I hate that most of this was probably staged..with the concert set up where she looked so distant from these kids. I can’t judge her, because she may have loved these kids just as much as i did…but the big flashy show really turns me off.
But the words are still so powerful. Oh..why do you look so sad? …Don’t be afraid to cry. I’ve seen a dark side too. I’ll stand by you. Wont let nobody hurt you. So…if you’re mad, GET MAD! Don’t hold it all inside. Come on and talk to me now. What do you have to hide? I get angry too.
This video sparked a lot of emotions in me. Anger…anger at this video, anger of the injustice that i saw, anger for the future of many of these kids if wrongs arent made right. Also a gut-wrenching sadness. Something was different about this trip. I fell in love with these kids, and i didnt even take the time to consider the risk of losing them. I ALWAYS consider the risk of losing someone before i make the step to love them. But for some reason, I didnt even think about it on this trip. I fell totally in love with these kids…and im not even a kid person! Yet it suddenly clicked that out of anyone I’ve ever loved, these kids hold the highest risk of being lost……to HIV, to rape, to abuse…the list could go on. Which then sparked more anger.
This video probably wont spark the same emotions within you, but its still worth watching. It still tells a story of a horrible injustice that MUST be stopped. I hate how Americanized it is…but it still has a good message. Watch it.
I’m not much of a crier. I havent cried much on this trip, but I have a feeling I havent even hit the emotional side of things yet. My emotions may just now be showing their face. Its possible I will see quite a few tears in the next few weeks and months. And it all started with a stupid american celebrity….