Stupid Prayers

So i’m an idiot.

Yeah basically, thats what it comes down to. I’ve been starting to pray stupid prayers. When i say stupid prayers i dont mean “God, bring me a 6′ tall man with blue eyes and brown hair.” I dont mean “God, I’d sure like a Dodge Charger.” And I dont mean “Could it please stop raining, God?”

No. I mean reckless abandonment of anything nice, and comfy and of the flesh. I mean nothing held back. The kinds of prayers that you think “can i just eat what i said?…i dont know if im ready for that.” The kind of prayers that cry “break me, strip me of myself, wreck my life in such a way that my only hope is you, bring trials, bring suffering if it means I will cling more and more to you and less and less to myself.”

So i’m an idiot.

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One thought on “Stupid Prayers

  1. yeah those are very stupid prayers but as someone who has prayed them, i don’t regret it at all. but the initia AHHHHH is hard to walk but He will get you through. amen girl.

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